An advantage of doing this is that, since writing this, I’ve realized I’ve had the Queen of Wands as an omen before, as recorded in this post on trying to communicate with my grandfather.
At the beginning of the week, I took my omen the way I usually do: in a semi-ritual in front of my altar, recapping my plans for the ancestors and asking for their wisdom. My heart always sinks a little when I get a reversed omen, but that’s what I got.
Now, of course, I can’t recall exactly what I said to the ancestors. But I think it was something along the lines of “I have a lot to do this week, and on top of that I want to invest more time with the kids and I’m feeling overwhelmed.”
That said, the omen made sense when I looked it up.
Delight in your strength – avoid bitterness
Looking in Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom, the meaning seemed pretty clear to me.
As with the King the upside down Queen shows the reaction of such a person to opposition and sorrow. The basic good nature and positive attitude of the Queen, as well as her energy, make her invaluable in a crisis or disaster. We can see her as the kind of person who will take over the running of someone’s house when they have had a crisis and at the same time offer advice, consultation, emotional support, all these things coming from a natural impulse rather than any sense of duty.
At the same time this good nature demands that life respond in a positive way. Too much disaster or too much opposition from life (and the weakness of such a person can be a tendency to think of life as ‘unfair’), and a nasty streak can emerge. She can become deceitful, jealous, unfaithful, or somewhat bitter.
It seems a pretty clear response to my week: you have the choice to delight in having the strength and character to confront such a week, or you can let it make you bitter.
I’m not going to say that drawing the omen made my week better. Or even that it was an easy week. I was tired on Friday. But, it was nice to have someone say “hey, you can manage this, if you choose to.”
So, I focused on getting the exercise that I’ve prescribed myself, and getting out in the breaks that I have. Even though I laid down on a bench in the woods rather than going on a long hike.
And, I got through the week. This coming week is a pretty difficult one again. Add to that the fact that I’d like to add in a Autumn Equinox ritual sometime, and I know I’ll have to manage the same thing again.
But, I also know I can.