Listen, I love the idea of the circle of the year. It’s just that I apprently stink at it in practice.
Just recently, Beltane happened. (‘Just recently’ means less than a week ago in this instance.) And it didn’t surprise me. I knew it was coming. I was just too un-invested in it to actually prepare.
Despite the fact that my Imbolc was pretty moving, I. . . I just find it hard to work out my own tradition. There’s a fear of doing it ‘wrong,’ which should be irrelevant, but I think that, if the function of ceremony to a hedge druid, is for me to feel a connection to a greater pagan community, then, well, there’s a pressure to do it right.
So, while I’m loving a heightened appreciation of the dance of seasons, I can’t say I’m really feeling the circle of the year. Maybe I really ought to join an order — for the beginning, at least — and do it ‘their way’ before branching off from that.